Category Archives: Cancer

From Fuzzy Head to Shoulder Length

“Somewhere, some time ago, someone told you that you had to do it all — and you had to do it all by yourself. Instead of saying no, paring down, and embracing quality of life over quantity of commitments, you allowed your life to spin out of control, And it’s left you without half a second to take a deep breath.” – Grace Not Perfection, Emily Ley   I was looking through pictures this morning and remember that day on the left (two years ago). I was soView full post »

Dreams

Days seem to pass more quickly as I get older, I am not sure if anyone else feels that way but I constantly feel the urge to slow down. There seems to be too many things for such little time and the next thing you know it is already June. In the past six months I watched as three women in my close circle pass due to cancer. (Jenna, Jenna, Kim). It is a strange and guilty feeling. The constant wondering as to why I am still here and why they are not. Why not me? The service for one of theseView full post »

Someday I’ll

Some friends of friends (that I call my friends) took the first 365 days of their marriage and have been traveling the world. From Southeast Asia to Patagonia and all these incredible places in-between they took off from their jobs and set out to explore the world. They have kept all of us informed through their blog where they take turns sharing of their incredible journey and sometimes exhausting uncomfortable days in the most unlikely of places. Each time they post I look forward to hearingView full post »

Why I am riding 200 Miles on the California Coast

You read my subject line and probably thought to yourself what is Kristina up to now. To be honest I have to ask myself that quite often. As I mark my second year as a breast cancer survivor I am learning more and more about how important it is to say yes to things that make me feel alive and fill you up, while giving yourself the opportunity to say no to things that steal. I recently finished the book, Present Over Perfect and these words seemed so appropriate…. “The world willView full post »

You have cancer… Look in their eyes

You have cancer and to be honest I don’t know what to say. You look to me for the answers to understand and I have attempted to protect myself from going to that place again. On the outside we talk about things analytically and I carefully try to keep myself from feeling too much. But, what you cannot see is that inside of me I created a shell to protect myself and it is slowly starting to crack. My efforts to keep my emotions tightly packaged are too much. So overtime my shell breaksView full post »

Why me?

I am not sure if it is the cloudy day or the crisp of the cool air hitting my cheeks that has every being in my body wishing to crawl back under the covers…… or maybe its the way my heart has softened and slowed this week. For more than a few moments the weight of it all has me stopped in my tracks. I crawled in bed Tuesday evening and slept almost twelve hours. My body and my mind were overwhelmed and I couldn’t bare it anymore…. I got my test results and everythingView full post »

Bucket List

“Bucket lists seem so self-involved. I live with the joy of the snuggle today, the hope for kisses tomorrow, and the grace to see grace even when it’s hard.” – Kara Tippets In my recent days of scrolling my Facebook or Instagram feed it seems more and more of people are climbing this supposed ladder of life. Always wanting, longing and wanting again for more. As though that one more thing, one more experience, one more purchase will provide for us in some way the nextView full post »

Christmas

“If you suddenly and unexpectedly feel joy, don’t hesitate. Give in to it.” ― Mary Oliver There are very few things I enjoy more than a quiet morning with a cup of coffee and a book. Well for this morning a Hallmark movie seems to be just the right addition. I am flying home today for Christmas and my heart could not be more full. I have my Louisville jersey ready to wear for my flight and my bags are packed. Tomorrow I get to spoil my little toe headed nephew with what I think is a reallyView full post »

Gingerbread Day #14

It started in Preschool for them and 1st grade for us. The beginnings of what would become a great friendship. But it was not until Middle School the we combined to be the “four of us”. Christie Lee and Me …. Stephanie and Brittany. This year we celebrate Year 14 of making Gingerbread Houses at Mark and Lee Etta’s House on Christmas Eve Eve (although the day has changed in recent years to accommodate all of us). We gather at the same table, in the same room at the sameView full post »