Three years ago my whole world changed. The news that I had breast cancer left me with what felt like hundreds of broken pieces of my life scattered about the floor. It was as though cancer didn’t care what my life was and it brought it all to rubble. Slowly over the last three years I have picked up piece by piece and thrown others away. It has and will continue to be a journey. But a beautiful one it has been.
One of my favorite quotes is from C.S. Lewis, “Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of – throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.”
I love this quote because I have always been so confident of what my life would look like. I knew what would transpire and what I would accomplish. But the beauty of this thing called life is that there is so much that we cannot control. Three years ago my planning and the control I had was quickly handed over to a cancer diagnosis. As the pieces fell apart what I didn’t realize meant something even more beautiful when it would all came back together.
The pieces have begun to fall into place and healing has been restored to my heart. It is amazing how in the same breath I have the desire to live like there is no tomorrow and yet moments later I remain so grateful for the simple. It is true, you can have all the things and hundreds of stamps in your passport but without the joy of others you have nothing. I have so very much. Cancer weaved a beautiful tapestry into my every day and has made me a better person as a result. My hope for you is that you may find the broken pieces of your life and find healing in seeing how they can be put back together. Think of me tomorrow and count your blessings. Know that I am ever so grateful to be here.
Thanks for cheering me on all this time!
Photo below from last weekend with Christie Lee visiting… Fall has arrived 🙂