“Somewhere, some time ago, someone told you that you had to do it all — and you had to do it all by yourself. Instead of saying no, paring down, and embracing quality of life over quantity of commitments, you allowed your life to spin out of control, And it’s left you without half a second to take a deep breath.” – Grace Not Perfection, Emily Ley
I was looking through pictures this morning and remember that day on the left (two years ago). I was so proud of my new fuzzy head and quite frankly loved it. You can see my lack of eyebrows and eyelashes despite my desperate attempts to coat on pounds of mascara. (thank you lash boost for my new brows and lashes). That girl was cancer free and feeling like she was beginning to be herself again. The picture on the right I took this morning. I attempted to recreate the same face despite feeling really off this morning. Reality has hit me over the head when I woke up feeling utterly exhausted.
I thought now would be a good time to share that I go to my doctor on Monday at the Cancer Center. I think I am the most nervous I have ever been likely due to the fact that I have not been in 6 months which for me is the longest I have been between checkups. I am also a little nervous because two friends in my breast cancer circles this past month have had a reoccurrence diagnosing them with Stage IV Breast Cancer. It is a bittersweet reminder that we are truly not promised anything in this life and that each day really is a gift.
Speaking of days being gifts I have nearly worn myself to the ground these past few weeks… I have been filling my calendar and forgetting to invest in myself. I have a hard time saying no and often times don’t want to miss out. Does anyone else feel that way? Last week I spent an entire week with my family in Telluride and realized even there I felt this need to always go. So this evening I am going to take some time to take a look at the next few weeks and carve out sometime for me and for the Lord.
I am officially 15 weeks away from my 200 Mile Bike Ride, Tour De Pink in California. Which means at the 12 week mark I will begin my intense training schedule. While this will demand a lot of time, I am excited about the structure that will be early mornings, hopefully early nights to bed and lots of fueling my body to succeed. I am truly overwhelmed by all of the support I have received!
I have raised $3,115! Thank you so much for all of your support.
I intend to keep everyone updated with my training and how I am doing. In the meantime I would appreciate your prayers as I head to the doctor Monday and should have my tumor marker results on Tuesday. Have a great Thursday!
- PS: Seriously Lash Boost (Rodan and Fields) changed my lashes… they are longer, fuller and thicker. Message me if I can get you some! It is the best!