Monthly Archives: February 2013

First week back I knew would be a challenge but I was not prepared for this. I think my kids forgot how to act, how to behave, or maybe they are just being seven and eight year olds…  At one point yesterday I walked out of the classroom to avoid breaking down even more than I already had. Out of complete frustration. Had to hold back from breaking down in tears….. They make it so very impossible some days…….

However last night I was able to connect with a dear friend, laugh about our past and smile about many things to come…… for that I am very grateful. We shared joy in her recent engagement and I attempted to admire her beautiful ring through our blurry computer screen. (Dearest Meg and Rory I am so excited for you both and grateful Meg that you met a man who will love you well for the rest of your days, so look forward to celebrating in Colorado in July)…..I am as well looking forward to my mom visiting Honduras (fingers crossed she is coming). I am patiently waiting as she secures her flight and excited to share with someone why this place has been my home for a year, to see what I see, to see what an incredible, yet incredibly frustrating place this is…..Hope she knows what she is in store for…

Heres to hoping and praying on this Wednesday. From my desk in my room…. (pardon my messy table) I am double tasking Louisville game and grading second grade math…. warmest to you…

I am listening to this song over and over again…. Enjoy…
  • I could just sit
  • I could just sit and wait for all your goodness
  • Hope to feel your presence
  • And I could just stay
  • I could just stay right where I am and hope to feel you
  • Hope to feel something again
  • And I could hold on
  • I could hold on to who I am and never let You change me from the inside
  • And I could be safe
  • I could be safe here in Your arms and never leave home
  • Never let these walls down
  • But you have called me higher
  • You have called me deeper
  • And I will go where you will lead me
  • ——-lyrics from All Sons and Daughters, Called Higher…….. reflecting on waiting on God.
  • I am home. Honduras home again. The next time I board a plane I will be heading to the States for good. In many ways I look forward to that day in July but in so many more ways, it feels really good to be home in Honduras. After waiting a few moments for my taxi at the airport this afternoon, I heard my name called from across the airport.  After confirming that the voice was in fact trying to get my attention, I recognized friends of mine. (they were dropping someone off at the airport). 

    It is so nice to call this place home and even more special to have someone call my name just as I landed.

    Today Colorado is a blanket of white snowy goodness…. snow that makes it impossible to leave your house and as my friends used to say, it is “hunker down” weather. Where you hunker down in the house, with good food, wine, lots of movies and good company. My old house in Washington Park was a place that holds so many memories of these kind of days. Days when we would have snowball fights that proceeded through our front door, walking to Starbucks up the road through feet of snow, or walking to see if the bar up the road was still open. I miss this more than you know. I have envy at every picture someone posts of the inches that have accumulated on porches, posts about flights cancelled, and the ski slopes that are filled with fresh powder. I received an email from a friend, that said, “I am in Beaver Creek and its dumping!” What this girl would give to snap my fingers and be there right now. 

    But tonight I am back in my bed in Pena Blanca… and my kids will be waiting for me tomorrow. I spent the afternoon doing yoga with my roommates in the every increasing temperate of our room, unpacked my things and bought fruit and vegetables for the week. Looking back on the previous week with my family in Cabo San Lucas I have decided it will most certainly be one of the most treasured trips we have ever taken. Not to bore you with a giant recap, just know that lots of sun, lots of coffee, lots of bloody Marys, beach yoga, yummy dinners, euchre, whale watching for the pacific life commercial, massages, facials including dad, our own pool, margaritas ….. but best of all seven days with my parents, my sister and her husband. (even extended when Josh and Britt got to stay till Sunday in Houston).

    As for other news, I am beyond excited to announce that I am attending yoga teacher training in Costa Rica following the end of the school year. For 28 days I will be attending an intensive teacher training to be certified to teach Ashtanga Vinyasa and Hot Yoga. More details I will share later but after lots of research I found this to be a perfect fit for the type of yoga I want to teach and what better location than Costa Rica….. So from June 15- July 11 I will be in yoga school (Sounds funny).

    Hello Textbooks…. more on there way. more fun doctor school i think πŸ™‚

    Night yall….. staying up later than planned. My roommate came running in to give me a hug at my bed. Feels good to be here, inspite of all the other places I wish could be too…..

    I like this quote below….. Charles Spurgeon is good for that….

    There are no measures which can set forth the immeasurable greatness of Jehovah, who is goodness itself… Notes of exclamation suit us when words of explanation are of no avail. If we cannot measure we can marvel; and though we may not calculate with accuracy, we can adore with fervency.” Charles Spurgeon

    The quiet blog is because I am sitting below….. Soaking up the time with my family for a week in Cabo San Lucas Mexico. I am back to Honduras on Sunday. Hope you have a wonderful week.

    My roommates often poke fun of my blog… I catch them reading it throughout different times of the day… they are often providing commentary, spotting grammatical errors and giving me a hard time because I either mentioned them or I did not.

    My immediate reaction is to apologize for mistakes or give a disclaimer to everyone reading that if my blog makes you angry because here I am teaching English and I clearly struggle writing well so I am sorry…. But…….. I am not going too. Take it or leave it, I write as I often think,  rolling out of my head and my heart, onto my laptop so that my family and friends know that I am ok and so they may hear the ramblings of my day and to day. More than any of that, this is my place to process all that has happened and all that is happening right in front of my face….. so i do hope you enjoy. I suppose if you don’t, you certainly do not hurt my feelings if you don’t read… πŸ™‚

    As for now….. one of my roommates (kylie is fast asleep in bed), I hear Faye and Alison laughing while doing Billy Blanks Tye Bo in the other room, there is a giant ant crawling next to my foot, I just swatted a mosquito off my arm and I am avoiding my room because the rat/mouse (More like the size of a rat) is dancing on the ceiling tiles in my bathroom and I want NOTHING to do with him/her. Yes you can hear her/him from my bed.

     I should have taken a picture of this this morning but two days he/she has taken a big chunk out of our avocados… lesson learned= avocados now go in the fridge… Its like his little foot scraped into it and ate it. really really really gross.

    My kids today were hilarious…. we had a great day, talked about how I will be gone starting thursday for one week. With big smiles on their faces the boys did some fist pumps and most of the girls were yelling,  “NO MISS” I promised them I will return and that they better be on their best behavior for the teachers covering my classes or else I will give them so much homework they wont be allowed to go outside….. (Smiling while saying this, kidding of course).

    I also had a big discussion about how I have eyes in the back of my head so when I am writing on the board I know what they are doing…. they think it is the greatest thing. (they do not believe it to be true). Although 9 times out of 10 I have made a guess at who is causing the commotion behind me and I am right…I do this just because they think it is the funniest thing in the world. They called me an alien in Spanish. I dont remember what the word is… but it was pretty funny.

    Finalizing their grades for the second term I have realized how much progress some of them have made….. to say I am proud would be an understatement. I have complete conversations with most of my kids now and I forget that this did not happen in August. I am taking deep breaths about the fact that when I come back from the States/Mexico it will be February 24th. With only four days left in the month of February. (WHAT THE HE&%????) Come March we go on a Visa trip run to Guatemala, Jason departs for good, my best friends Birthday Christie Lee is the 25th and then we go on Spring Break in Utila. (honduran bay island). We come back from all of that and have about 9 weeks left till the end of school. Thats it.

    Tonight I am going to bed overwhelmed with the thought, ” Am I really going to move back to Kentucky and leave Colorado?”…… I am going to try and get some sleep. Thinking about it brings upon a wave of emotion I dont even know where to begin processing and even more so makes me doubt that I ever thought that this was a good idea to begin with.

    All of this is I know is so trivial to the family that is screaming from outside my window, that sleeps in a house that seems to barely stand up and the two sweet girls in wheel chairs at the orphanage yesterday that have big smiles on their faces and dont live as though they were abandoned and rejected by their families…. it is all so trivial….. sleep well to all of you …..warmest kristina

    β€œThe whole of the life — even the hard — is made up of the minute parts, and if I miss the infinitesimals, I miss the whole. These are new language lessons, and I live them out. There is a way to live the big of giving thanks in all things. It is this: to give thanks in this one small thing. The moments will add up.” 
    ― Ann VoskampOne Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are

    The weekend… has come and gone. This Sunday may go on record as one of the most productive in a while and a day I can scratch off more of my twenty wishes that I want to accomplish come December of this year.

    Below is a updated:

    7. Visit an Orphanage at least once a month (whether I am in Honduras or anywhere)

          • December 1, 2012 San Pedro Sula

          • December 8, 2012 Pena Blanca

          • January 28, 2013 Pena Blanca

          • February 10, 2013 Pena Blanca

          • March

          • April

          • May

          • June

          • July 

          • August

          • September

          • October

          • November

    1. Read four Jane Austen Novels (Pride and Prejudice, Sense and Sensibility, Northanger Abbey, Mansfield Park)
    2. Complete 30 days straight of yoga
    After an early night Saturday I woke up on my own around 6 am this morning. Our early morning habit of waking up for school must be to blame. Kylie, Rose and I did yoga at 7:30 for an hour while the rest of our house stayed in bed. With a cup of coffee I then grabbed my book and finished Pride and Prejudice. I am a big fan of the movie and the book was even better than I could have hoped. One of my favorite quotes, (Cheesy a bit but I like it still.)

    In vain have I struggled, it will not do. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you.” 

    Anticipating a very very hot day I set out for a walk/run by myself for an hour after I finished my book. It was really nice to be out and get some time to just be out of our house, alone. When I returned home a few of us had made a plan to head to the orphanage in town to hang with the kids around 3. 
    In between the time I spent the rest of my day at the coffee shop in town planning for my kids while I am gone and finalizing all their grades. I was dreading this, so I am glad that i am most of the way finished.
    At the orphanage today I learned that my favorite little one, Arturo, has two siblings  This is quite the news to hear considering I want to take him home with me.  Seeing as this is the case than I must take all three…… I will have to make it work. Arturo was just as cute as I remember. Most of the time I was swinging on the swings while the kids pushed me or I was pushing them. It was really nice to spend the afternoon playing on the playground.
    We had a successful family dinner tonight, prepared by Kylie and Jason. They served chicken sandwiches with special cranberry mayonnaise (a Upstate New York favorite) and chocolate cream cheese cupcakes (kylies special recipe). Family dinner, is my favorite tradition that we have. We make a point each week to eat dinner together (all the teachers + Jason). By random drawing you are paired up with someone to cook and you are responsible for the menu, any drink items, decorations etc. Tonight was the last night of this round so we redrew names and made a new calender. Next weekend I will be away and others are traveling so we will start back up the following week. I am paired with Faye and Jason and we are serving on March 20, 2013. Right before our Spring Break trip and before Jason’s departure. Lots of time to plan for a final farewell to Jason.
    All of this to say that after a day of yoga, a run, finishing my book, lesson planning, orphanage visit, family dinner and finalizing grades I am going to sleep. Its going to be a busy week, a short one too. I am Houston bound Thursday morning and then on to Mexico Friday. Yippee πŸ™‚ Just a little excited!
    Night to you…..